Him

I read his letters and smile at how vividly I can see him.  I wish with all my heart that his words were directed at me, but they aren't, they are to her.  I read anyway, simply wanting to hear and feel that he is close.  Because to me he seems a dream, untouchable, just a memory.  I feel invisible to him.  He feels so big to me, he crowds my vision and thoughts, as if he is magnified, a giant when everyone else is so small. I see him. I guess it is possible to fall in love with someone who doesn't see you...a one-way love.  But maybe, just maybe...he will see one day.  See the one who sees him.  Maybe he will get home and I will be  new to him, a woman and not just a girl. I have changed.  Maybe I didnt allow him to see me before...but I will let him see me now...I am worth seeing, worth loving, worth it.  I deserve the best.  Take courage, be confident and believe that dreams do come true, that you are allowed to love, allowed to fall, allowed to hope for him.